I have a
phrase that I find often coming out of my mouth in reference to the physical
effect Ehlers-Danlos has had on my body. "I hate my body! I hate every
fiber of it." It is said mostly out of frustration and pain. It occurred
to me what I really was angry at was my symptoms and my pain rather than the
source itself. A better word for my body is my flesh and bone. I should be
saying I hate my flash every bone every joint every fiber every muscle, every
cell of mutated collagen. It occurred to me that in spiritual sense that's how
we should be! We should hate our flesh! Live by the Spirit walk in the light. I
take medication, use essential oils, heat, ice, movement, stillness and rest. The
cast or ace bandages, braces that support my joints, Have a great medical team
that gives me great care. I have
wonderful family and friends, who support my heart and body. I am contently in
a juggle to try and do just about anything to keep my flesh from not raging in
distress! What I should be doing is spending
more time taming my eternal flesh rather than this temporary one. After all Ephesians 6:12 (ESV) says 12 For we do not wrestle against flesh
and blood, but against the rulers, against the authorities, against the cosmic
powers over this present darkness, against the spiritual forces of evil in the
heavenly places.
Romans 8: 5:11 says
this
5 For those who live
according to the flesh set their minds on the things of the flesh, but those
who live according to the Spirit set their minds on the things of the Spirit. 6
For to set the mind on the flesh is death, but to set the mind on the Spirit is
life and peace. 7 For the mind that is set on the flesh is hostile to God, for
it does not submit to God's law; indeed, it cannot. 8 Those who are in the
flesh cannot please God.9 You, however, are not in the flesh but in the Spirit,
if in fact the Spirit of God dwells in you. Anyone who does not have the Spirit
of Christ does not belong to him. 10 But if Christ is in you, although the body
is dead because of sin, the Spirit is life because of righteousness. 11 If the
Spirit of him who raised Jesus from the dead dwells in you, he who raised
Christ Jesus[d] from the dead will also give life to your mortal bodies through
his Spirit who dwells in you
My flesh
often speaks louder than my spirit. It has taken me years to learn that one of
the best pain relievers I have is setting my mind not on my flesh but on the
Spirit of the living God. When I find myself screaming, I hate my body! I hate
every fiber of it; I retreat into my room alone. I turn off the lights; lay on
my face on the bed and put worship music on. I just ask the Holy Spirit to come and sit
with me. I have had to learn how to tame my flesh and bones. Yes my medical
tools help but the best soothing I have is from the warmth of the Holy Spirit
in the middle of my rage and pain. I daily
struggle to keep my bones and flesh from falling apart, but I struggle more
with keeping my inner flesh from ripping my spirit man apart. The two go hand
in hand. When I stray from walking in the Spirit my physical body struggles to
coupe with my chronic illness. If you
are struggling today take time to tame the flesh. The flesh is death but the Spirit
is life and peace! Remember these words today as you try and tame your flesh both inner and outward.
Psalms 73 :26 My flesh and my heart may fail, but God is the strength of my heart and my portion forever.
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